Can’t risk it
The duck of creativity. I waited so long for it.
(Source: vincent-van-gtg)
tw rape mention
also i was raped like 4 times in 2016 and i wasn’t like completely aware i was raped until like days or weeks or months later and when it happened i just felt confused and even joked about it like i got gang raped at the beach in june and i tweeted that “i got gang banged and got my nipples pierced it’s lit” and people are like omg vic ur so wild and crazy!! goals!!! like i pretend like im having fun but i think thhat entire time i wasn’t ready to accept and ralized i was gang raped and i just tried to act like i was ok when deep down i wasn’t
it’s like that lana del rey song carmen
“fooling everyone telling them she’s having fun”
also i got raped in august by my tinder date. it was consensual at first but then the next morning he coerced me and kept pressuring me and using force and it just felt so confusing and i felt upset. the weird thing was that when he was fucking me i was moaning but i was fake moaning and i just felt this automatic response to please him . it felt degrading and violating. i posted pictures of us on the internet saying “hungout with this cute boy” and everyone was like omg yasss proud of u but behind that story/pic was just manipulative entitled boy and i realized months later he raped/sexually assaulted me and it just fucked me up
in october i was raped by my ex’s friend and he gave me 4mg of xanax. the thing was i chose to drink and take xanax , i get high and drunk with guys before and i expect them to respect me. but this guy straight up fucked me while i was half conscious and i woke up to him fucking me and i didn’t even consent and i was fucked up and again i did this automatic response to please him and fake moan and it was just really shitty. he cuddled with me afterwards and i felt this ambivalent feeling of fear and comfort at the same time. i felt too ashamed to talk about it because i did take drugs with him so i felt like it was my fault because i got into this and it was like an invitation but i never wanted this to happen and he never even asked me and i just felt so violated. i feel like people would blame me for it though. my ex victim blamed me and told me “well.. i told u how he was.. sooooo..” and it just felt so horrible i didn’t talk about it again . im talking about it now.
my ex during sex didn’t rape me but took the condom off without telling me and it just felt shitty that he violated my trust like that.
i just feel like rape fucked me up. ever since i got gang banged last june of 2016 i became more promiscuous. there were times in 2016 that i had consensual sex but it didn’t feel good,. i was raped 4 times, and probably had consensual sex with like 10-15+ people.
idk. i just feel fucked up, disgusting and horrible ashamed .
and i try to be very open about myself but there will always be people who judge me and im very sensitive but i still try to stay true to myself im soft and i can’t help it it’s just how i am i can’t change that and i feel like bottling up my thoughts will make me insane. i’m already insane but just expressing and processessing my experiences like this helps me a little bit and i feel a little more free.
i’m just very sad. i get panic attacks and feel fearful all the time
sometimes i don’t though and will feel bursts of confidence and mania.
i just feel like a cluster of symptoms and it’s just unstable i feel so unstable
i act friendly and nice to people and some people irl think im funny weird sometimes and carefree but i feel so opposite of that inside
i dont know
im just confused
i wish i was fucking normal
I related to this so much. This is all exactly how I felt two years ago and still sometimes today. I’m now sober a little oftwo years but all of this I identified with to the core. I love u and I don’t even know u but I get you. It’s hard to articulate these things but u did it so well. There is hope. There is love in this world and u are worth feeling that.
(Source: owlyrebloggins)
(Source: paintdeath)
Real environmentalists don’t eat meat
this needs tO BE SHOUTED FROM ROOF TOPS
Friendly reminder
#repost from @jamesaspey because his words are more than perfect, I couldn’t have said it better myself!
“Imagine this scenario… You want to buy some milk and cheese.
You go to the supermarket and the person at the counter says, “Sure, I can get those things for you, but to do so, I am going to have to jack off a bull to collect his semen. Then I’ll have to shove my arm into a cows anus and force the semen into her to impregnate her so she starts producing milk. After she gives birth I’ll have to take her babies from her or they’ll drink the milk, then I’ll slit the throats of the boys who are worthless to me, and force the same things onto the young girls as I do to their mum. After repeating the process for years until they can’t handle it any longer, I’m going to slit their throats as well.” Would you say, “Why should I care what you do to animals for me to get their milk? None of that matters to me. I couldn’t care less if my purchase causes all that animal cruelty. What’s important is having milk on my cereal.” Or would you say, “What!? NO WAY! Don’t even think about doing any of that on my account! I really don’t need milk that badly. In fact, you should not be doing that to animals, at all, ever! Just give us the soy or almond milk, no biggy! And leave the animals alone!” You don’t just pay for the finished product. Your money is the cause of EVERYTHING that happens to these animals for birth to slaughter.
Buying animal products causes harm to animals. None of these products are needed for you to be healthy or happy. Please be kind to the vulnerable. Their fate is in YOUR hands.
Go vegan ✌🏽️”
- @jamesaspey#notyourmilk
#rawtilfour #healthy #vegan #plantbased #fitness #veganathletes #plantpoweredathlete #hclf #mindfuleating #protecttheplanet #carbthefuckup #govegan #vegancommunity #crueltyfree #cleaneating #healthylifestyle #cowspiracy #hungryforchange #veganfoodshare #vegansofig #health #seekingunitynpeace #vegansofdc #healthyfoodie #eeeeeats #feedfeed #health #foodie
bye i love this
Man: Siri, what is 1 trillion to the tenth power?
Siri: Calculation. The answer is one zero zero zero zero zero [continuing]
Man: *starts beatboxing to the rhythm.
Woman 1: *joins in*
Woman 2: *starts singing to the rhythm*This is sO GOOD
You are a child of the Universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the Universe is unfolding as it should.
—Max Ehrmann (via purplebuddhaproject)
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gqa1:
Reblog In 5 seconds for good luck
this worked last night lets go for round two
Shut yours eyes so the heart may become your eye and with that vision look upon another world.
—Rumi (via abiding-in-peace)
(Source: distractful)
Vegan chocolate chip protein pancakes😍 Part of my Crush60 recovery! I’m listening to the latest Mayday Parade album while I destroy these🍴
I need 12 of these
How. did. you. make. this. heaven.